Collections

ps asked me a question a while back, and I never got around to answering, and now it inspired this post.  I won’t be specifically answering his question, but he deserves attribution for the impulse.

I believe I mentioned a while back that I'm a bit of a hoarder, but in the digital realm mostly. I have to have series in their entirety. Even if I didn't like the last season of a TV show, I might buy the whole package so I can have it all. And I collect data. I have hundreds of books that I probably won't ever get the chance to read.  I have a lot of eBooks even though I don’t really like eBooks.  I have PDFs by the zillion.  And I have a lot of porn.  A lot.

My biggest porn collection is images. I just enjoy collecting them, like one might collect stamps or coins or postcards.  I think I may enjoy collecting them more than I enjoy looking at them.  It may spring from a time when I was in a situation where I didn’t have much internet access, so I had to hoard for the lean times.  Or maybe it’s just my OCD.  Yes, collecting is a form of OCD.

I don't collect videos as much, although I do collect links to them. And I can look at porn more than once. Maybe not repeatedly for a long period, but if I look at it, enjoy it, save it, and then come back to it later, I can enjoy it again.  My video collection is more of a functional thing; I will probably look at most of the links I collect eventually (although I’m always collecting more).

Basically, I have hang-ups.  Who doesn’t?

I used to go for hardcore porn in images, but lately I’ve been more interested in the kind of thing that you might see in FFF, or maybe just nude women.  I also like amateur stuff, the stuff that maybe isn’t much good, but somehow because it’s amateur it’s more “real” to me and so I enjoy it more.  My hardcore cravings I get out with videos.

And did I mention that I’ve started using Picasa to tag my picture collection.  Because secretly I want to be a librarian.

So yes, I have gigs and gigs of images that I’m probably never going to look at again.  And yes, that’s probably not healthy, per se.  But at least they’re not physical objects, and I’ve occasionally done a “Fuck it, I’m deleting everything!” purge.  I tossed a lot of stuff that I thought might get me into trouble at a certain point.  And there’s a part of me that hates that I get rid of things.  But what are you going to do?  Spring cleaning, that’s what it is.  Healthy, I guess.

Anyway, that’s my collection of words about collections.