TMI Tuesday

From the vaults:

Which do you enjoy more in bed, pain or pleasure?

I'm a pleasure gal, I'm afraid. I have to really be in a very specific headspace to enjoy even a little pain, and that's generally only with subby Lexi, who only comes out to play with guys, usually. It's a shame that I don't enjoy pain more because the idea doesn't turn me off, but actually experiencing it usually throws a bucket of cold water on my libido.

Do you like being tickled during sex? Where?

I don't particularly like being tickled during sex unless that's part of the play. If I'm fooling around with someone or someones and we're playing and tickling and sex is also involved in that play, I can dig it. Mike used to tickle me sometimes, and Sheri knows every ticklish spot on my body. I do find that I've gotten less ticklish as I get older. I don't know if that's a usual thing or not.

Have you ever used feathers during sex?

Yes. Once fucked wearing a feather boa as part of a costume, and he used it to great effect on my pussy. It wasn't tickling, it was teasing. I don't really know how to describe the difference but there was one.

Do you like to be blindfolded during sex? Why?

I don't like or dislike it. Sometimes it's great, if my partner or partners know what they're doing. Simply slapping on a blindfold isn't what makes it sexy though. I remember one guy I was with who really wanted to blindfold me and tie me up, and while neither of those things are instant panty-wetters for me, he was super into the idea, so I let him talk me into it. And then all he did was standard, garden-variety stuff he could have done with my eyes open and my hands and feet free. I'm not saying it didn't work for him: it absolutely did work for him, and I'm okay with doing things for my partner rather than myself. But it wasn't that interesting for me.

What makes it interesting, blindfold-wise, is teasing and touching. Or bringing in another person as a surprise. Really, anything which allows me to concentrate my other senses on what's going on works too. And a blindfold does work to heighten the other senses. But if you don't do anything with it, it's just slightly heightened senses while fucking, which can be nice, but isn't immediately attractive to me.

Have you ever used cold or heat as part of your sex play? What provided the cold or heat?

We use warmth often enough. There's nothing like soaking the appropriate toy in hot water to add a bit of pleasure to using it. Extreme heat like flames, not so much, usually because of the pain angle.

Cold is a fun change of pace. The last time I remember doing anything with cold, I sucked on ice cubes before going down on Sveta and Zoe, just to get them used to it, then I used ice strategically. You can't just slap a cube on a girl's clit and make her go off. Or the nipples. Anything sensitive, you've got to tease around. Sveta was more into it than Zoe was, although Zoe got into being the user of the ice on me.

I remember one time, don't recall much about it but this, that ice was used on me and I was in the middle of an orgasm and my partner managed to drop me out of it by judicious application of ice, which sounds bad until you do it multiple times and it just builds the anticipation and then finally your partner puts their warm mouth on your lady parts and gives you an absolutely massive, toe-cramping, eyeball-rolling orgasm which lasts for what feels like hours. I'm not sure I'd do it again, not without that partner who knew what they were doing, but now I can't remember which partner it was, so I guess either I'll figure it out one day or I'll just never have that level of edging applied to me again.

Do you enjoy being spanked, giving spankings, or both?

So my parents never spanked us when we were kids. You shouldn't. It's really bad for children's development to hurt them. It sounds almost crazy when I say it like that.

Anyway, I don't have a spanking fetish because of preexisting trauma or because I want to fuck my parents. That said, occasionally when subby Lexi is out and in control (so to speak) I am totally fine with the idea of being spanked. And here I'm not referring to getting slapped on the ass while being fucked. That, I can sometimes get into, but I'm a wimp. No, I'm talking about taking me over your knee and slapping my ass repeatedly in a way which gets both of us excited.

As far as giving spankings, I'll do it if asked. It helps if there's roleplay going on or something like that, but if that floats someone's boat, I'm okay with it. I like to give spankings to girls more than to guys because girl butts are just better, sorry guys.

Do you have a safeword? Have you ever used it?

I've never done more than joke about a safeword. That's a bit too hardcore for me. If I were going to indulge in a couple of fantasies where the usual "stop it" wouldn't work, I'd come up with one, but as of yet I've never been in a situation where I felt the need of one and was given the opportunity to have one. Don't make my bad choices. Only indulge in safe play.

Zoe's Secret Fetish

It's not that uncommon for people in this house to be watching porn. This might not come as much of a surprise. We try to keep it to times when it won't be a bother, so for instance we don't watch porn on the TV in the living room very often, and we don't watch porn when there are outsiders present. But despite the fact that it might seem like there would be no reason for any of us to need to tickle the tender tamale, what with willing partners around, all three of us sometimes just want to get off in as expedient a manner as possible.

I mention all this as prelude because walking in on someone watching porn is usually a non-issue. Occasionally someone will walk in on someone else slickly spelunking and offer to join in, but honestly usually it's just a matter of saying hey, I'll leave you to it. Masturbation, despite my enjoying numerous funny ways of referring to it, is no big deal. It's just something you do.

So when I came into the room and Zoe immediately hid her phone from me, even though it was clear that she'd been making solo clam chowder, I wondered what was up. I asked her what was up. She said, "Oh, nothing much." But she's not practiced in the art of being nonchalant about playing with her joy buzzer in my company, so it was clear something had been up. If she'd been a guy, she would have been hard as a rock.

As it was, I mostly chalked it up to Zoe's inexperience. Sometimes Sveta even gets a little shy about dancing the two-finger tango. Me, I'm over shyness about fingering myself, but I was just raised that way. Old habits die hard.

Anyway, I let it go, left the room, let her get back to it, figured that was that. But it kept happening. I don't mean it happened every time I came into the room or anything, but I "caught" Zoe giving herself panty CPR more than once over the course of the following few days, and she was always extremely coy about it.

So I figured, hey, gal's got a secret fetish she's not letting on about. That's cool. Communication is key, but it takes time. I even harbored a small hope that maybe Zoe was turned on by incest and that would make everything so much easier, but I also know that liking incest porn and being okay with the real thing are two very different things, so it was a very small hope.

Then one day I was watching porn myself on my computer and had managed to stray pretty far afield from my typical fare. I had found this fetish model who was super into piss, and while I hadn't been looking for it, it tickled a certain fancy, so I was watching this model piss in the woods or something like that and didn't even notice that Zoe had come in until she said, "Oh my god, you like it too?!"

Understand that I haven't told Zoe everything. I haven't told Zoe a lot of things. Zoe is blissfully unaware of this blog, for example. She also has no idea how well-traveled I am, sexually. I haven't hidden it from her, but I haven't held story time or anything. She knows what she's asked about and if I haven't volunteered additional information, that's on me I guess.

So poor Zoe had no idea that she wasn't just some sick freak who enjoyed watersports. I guess it's partially on her for not being honest about it, but come on, she's young, relatively inexperienced, and Sveta and I have never brought it up.

Thus I got to have a delightful conversation about piss play with Zoe, piss play novice. She was extremely eager though, once she got over the initial shock. And she's definitely subbe in this regard. Has no interest in peeing on anyone, really, but is definitely down for being used to pee on, in, or around.

Sveta and I have tried a little watersports stuff, but she's not that into it, and I am largely dominant with other women when it comes to lesbian piss play. But hey, Zoe wanted it, wanted it bad, so who was I to say no to being given the gift of a gal who wants a little domination?

It didn't take much to get me to adjourn to the bathroom, though I did tell Zoe that it would be even better if we had a better tub. She was practically begging to eat me out while I pissed on her though. We stripped down and I let the girl get to work revving up my engine, which didn't take much, then I stopped her and said, "I think maybe your first time, you should take it slow, okay?"

"Okay Lexi," she said, looking up at me with these liquid eyes that just made me want to throw caution to the winds and fill her stomach with gold. I resisted. Time enough for that later.

I really should have drunk more water and waited, so it wouldn't be quite as strong a taste, but she didn't want to wait and honestly neither did I. "Open your mouth," I said, gently but firmly. She obeyed. "Now, stick your tongue out and just taste it first." And I relaxed a little and let the piss trickle onto her tongue.

And she loved it.

Caution was thrown decidedly to the winds shortly thereafter because Zoe was doing the throwing. I pulled her head to my cunt, let her lips wrap around my pubis, and then let flow, and God damn if she didn't start drinking it like she was made for it. It's not like in porn where they let it spill out so you can see it. She wanted all of it, and she got it.

I came up empty before either of us were really ready to stop, but then I pulled her up to kiss her, tasting my pussy and my piss on her lips. Then we fucked, hard, in the shower, with a strapon, me behind her pulling her back onto me. I didn't cum until I forcefully pulled her face down to my pussy and ordered her to lick me clean.

Then after that, I felt really guilty for being so forceful, so I helped her to bed and spent a long time tenderly licking her vulva until she begged me to stop because she couldn't stand to cum anymore.

It was, in a word, hot. Hot as hell, in fact. We discussed it and she was totally game, wanted more. Plus she's interested in peeing her panties, or doing it outside. It's getting too cold to do that these days, but who knows?

Anyway, Zoe's a little piss freak. Who would have guessed?

I'm Still Here

I haven't died or gone away for good. I've just been very busy with this play I'm directing and work and so forth. I promise, smut is coming.