Sex is Nice

To those who’ve asked, Sveta and I are geographically coexisting, but temporally is another matter.  She works, I work, and we don’t currently share any days off, which means less time together.  Which sucks.

But when we do get together, it’s pretty epic.  Last night, even though we both had to wake up for work the next day, I spent an hour slowly working larger and larger things into her ass.  She’s getting to be a pro at taking things in her asshole. and I love, love, love to watch her squirm as that puckered rosebud slowly accepts something which looks like it should split her in two.  With some mad money, we went out a few weeks ago and got a plug which  is almost the size of my fist at its widest point.  The thing about it is that it doesn’t have much taper; it starts small, gets big pretty quickly, and then only has a very small bump at the bottom above the base.

You can’t just jump right in, of course.  I do a lot of anal massaging, and we’ve found that I can get her off almost without touching anything but her ass.  The plug is clear glass too, so I can see up inside her, which never turned me on that much before but really does now.

And I’ve been getting some jollies too.  I had a fling with a guy I met at a party, a one-night thing but what a night it was.  He was rough, which I hadn’t realized I needed, but when he started fucking my throat and then stopped and apologized, I just jammed my head back down on his cock and he took the hint.  I was a little bruised when it was said and done.  No anal, but while he didn’t have incredible stamina, he made up for it with lots of excellent fore- and after-play, as well as being up for it four times in a row over the course of a few hours.  Never knew his last name, will never see him again, and I was fine with that.

Other than that, I have no time still, and I don’t know when or if that will change.  Had a few moments and I’m really horny, so I thought I’d share.  Unlimited love to you all.

TMI Not Tuesday

1. I could spend all day _fucking_ but couldn’t stand five minutes _watching NASCAR_ .

Yeah, okay, so that’s a bit of a non-sequitor.  I really don’t get car racing though. If that makes me an ivory-tower-elite, I guess that’s what I am.

2. I would love to have a robot in my house to do _pretty much everything domestic_ because no one else ever does.

I hate housework.

3. The older you get the more _tired_ you get.

Tell me it’s not true. Okay, it’s probably not for lucky people.

4. I want to _have wild sex_ when I _see my sweetie_ .

Which isn’t anywhere near often enough these days.

5. My appetite for _sex_ can never be satisfied.

Yeah, did you really think I wasn’t going to say this? I can live with less than I want, but I want more than I could ever have so that’s a good thing.

Bonus: If I were a hoarder, I would hoard _pornography_ .

Except I am and I do.

No Time

I love you all, I really do.  I just wish I had more time.  I'm alive.  I'm just...  Have you ever had things go right just so they can go wrong worse than they were before?  That's about where I am right now.  Terrified of the other shoe dropping.  I wish I could escape to blog-land, tell a few fun, sexy stories, get myself into a tither.  But I can't.  No time.

TMI Saturday

1. If your lover was turned on by forced feminization would you participate (giving or receiving)?
*forced feminization is the practice of enforcing activities on a male, which are typically associated with women, to make him submissive. For example: wearing lingerie, heels, make-up.

I might try it out, but I’m not really a dom by nature, nor am I that into men in women’s clothing.  As with many things I’ve never done (not that I’ve never done that many things) it would depend on who was asking and how they asked.

2. When you have sexual dreams or fantasies that are aggressive or cruel, does it worry you?

Aggressive, no.  Cruel, a bit.  I have some dark parts of my psyche which worry me.

3. Tell us your hottest filthiest fantasy, right now, in 100 words or less. This is the fantasy about your desires that you probably never share, maybe they even go against your morals, or are social taboos.

To be tied up in a vulnerable position and made use of by random people however they wanted.  Maybe a few rules, but pretty much open season on Lexi.  The bondage isn’t really necessary, but there’s a part of me that would just like to be used right now.  Toilet play definitely involved.  What can I say?  I’m feeling kinky.

4. Which super hero would you like to have sex with? Why?

1. Aquaman
2. Superman
3. Wonder Woman
4. She-Ra

Either of the two women, although I could see the up-side to Aquaman as well.  Superman seems like a dick, frankly, and not in a good way.

5. Knowing there’s a hot young couple in the adjoining hotel room, would you press your ear against the wall to hear the action on the other side?

Good lord yes.  I don’t mind if someone listens to me either.

6. Do you think the lure to live out sexual fantasies or have sex frequently is amplified by technology? Briefly explain.

I think technology makes it easier to think our abnormalities are okay (not that they aren’t), to find people of a similar mindset, and definitely to get pornographic materials.  Other than that, I don’t know, and I’m not sure if any of the above are good or bad things.

Bonus: Describe your fantasy life in three (3) words.

Fantasy, fantasy, fantasy.  I’m trying more and more to keep a separation.  There’s no point in living in fantasies, not when there are many things in the real world which are wonderful.  But by the same token, fantasy is important too.  If I fantasize about someone other than Sveta, that doesn’t mean I love her any less.  It’s fantasy.  It’s healthy.  But it shouldn’t affect my real life.

Collections

ps asked me a question a while back, and I never got around to answering, and now it inspired this post.  I won’t be specifically answering his question, but he deserves attribution for the impulse.

I believe I mentioned a while back that I'm a bit of a hoarder, but in the digital realm mostly. I have to have series in their entirety. Even if I didn't like the last season of a TV show, I might buy the whole package so I can have it all. And I collect data. I have hundreds of books that I probably won't ever get the chance to read.  I have a lot of eBooks even though I don’t really like eBooks.  I have PDFs by the zillion.  And I have a lot of porn.  A lot.

My biggest porn collection is images. I just enjoy collecting them, like one might collect stamps or coins or postcards.  I think I may enjoy collecting them more than I enjoy looking at them.  It may spring from a time when I was in a situation where I didn’t have much internet access, so I had to hoard for the lean times.  Or maybe it’s just my OCD.  Yes, collecting is a form of OCD.

I don't collect videos as much, although I do collect links to them. And I can look at porn more than once. Maybe not repeatedly for a long period, but if I look at it, enjoy it, save it, and then come back to it later, I can enjoy it again.  My video collection is more of a functional thing; I will probably look at most of the links I collect eventually (although I’m always collecting more).

Basically, I have hang-ups.  Who doesn’t?

I used to go for hardcore porn in images, but lately I’ve been more interested in the kind of thing that you might see in FFF, or maybe just nude women.  I also like amateur stuff, the stuff that maybe isn’t much good, but somehow because it’s amateur it’s more “real” to me and so I enjoy it more.  My hardcore cravings I get out with videos.

And did I mention that I’ve started using Picasa to tag my picture collection.  Because secretly I want to be a librarian.

So yes, I have gigs and gigs of images that I’m probably never going to look at again.  And yes, that’s probably not healthy, per se.  But at least they’re not physical objects, and I’ve occasionally done a “Fuck it, I’m deleting everything!” purge.  I tossed a lot of stuff that I thought might get me into trouble at a certain point.  And there’s a part of me that hates that I get rid of things.  But what are you going to do?  Spring cleaning, that’s what it is.  Healthy, I guess.

Anyway, that’s my collection of words about collections.

More Serious Discussion

So I got the job I was hoping for.

Yay me.  I'm actually really happy about it.  But what it means is that, in combination with a few other circumstances... I have basically no time to blog.  At all.

Yeah.

I'm not stopping.  I'm just telling you all why I'm not blogging at the moment.  Things will change and I'll get more time, I hope, and then maybe I'll be able to start up again.  But for right now, I need the money and I can't make money like this.  The job comes first.  Well, actually, Sveta comes first, then job, then other stuff, then, sadly, the blog.

So I love you, and I'll be back I hope, but if you don't see me around as much, that's why.

Fuck You Again Blogger

Blogger doesn't confirm comment deletion, nor does it offer the ability to delete to the trashcan and later recover said deletions.  So I had a lot of nice comments which went bye-bye when I accidentally pressed the wrong button.  I shall reproduce them in their entirety below because I love you all.  Fortunately, they were available to me via email.

Also, I'm turning off comment moderation because I almost never get spam or anything which needs to be moderated, and I'm not around often enough to make it fair to anyway.  Expect to see comments immediately.  I can still moderate them after they're published anyway.

Here we go:

Jack and Jill left a comment on "TMI Maybe":

Masturbation rules no matter what month it is! We're a bit intrigued by your porn collection. :)

Jack and Jill left a comment on "Flash Fiction Friday - Gasps":

Nothing more fun than upsetting uptight people! Great story. 

TemptingSweets99 left a comment on "Flash Fiction Friday - Gasps":

"There’s no point in indulging a hint of mischief if no one disapproves."

Love it! Happy FFF!

Advizor54 left a comment on "Flash Fiction Friday - Gasps":

If your new found employment interferes with your writing, then I will have to insist that you move in with me as a sponsor and keep up with your art. :-)

The Panserbjørne left a comment on "Flash Fiction Friday - Gasps":

I stole it from one of your photo archives somewhere, I'm pretty sure. I don't think it was one you actually sent to me.

Glad to have you playing along!

-- PB

Max left a comment on "Flash Fiction Friday - Gasps":

Lovely little piece. As you say, what's the fun if no one disapproves? :-)

Happy FFF!

Thanks everyone.  And I'm sorry I deleted these and they won't appear where they should.  But I love you all, even my lurkers.  No need to comment for me to love you.